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23:12:00, June 30th, 2007
 
 
John Henry Holliday, DDS
John grows progressively more voluble and possibly feverish:

1. Who did you look up to as a child?
When I was a little boy, before the war, I looked up to my Uncle John. He was a real doctor, and he was kind and always very interested in me. Later my heroes, like those of every good Southern boy, were Lee and Jackson, and I looked up to the cavalry officers; Forrest, Morgan, Stuart. It seemed that these men were really working miracles, for us. And we believed.
2. We all have a dream that guides us in life. What is yours?
I don't have a dream - I have lived my life looking over my shoulder, as if I were seeing it as history already. What has guided me has been a simple thing - my family Latin motto. Nulli Virtute Secundus. In virtue second to none. My dream, I suppose, is to live up to that, for myself, so that I can be proud. It is not a dream I can achieve, but a dream that has swept me along with it. It is a dream of process rather than fullfillment. And I will tell you that it is for God as well - to make him a better world. Not only is it the only way to live with myself, it is the only way in which I can believe that I have a place in his world.
3. What was the best day you ever had with those you love?
This is the best day with my family. A perfect day. I had the best day of my modern life with Gabriel recently. It continues. But we have written all about that as well. My best day with Wyatt was one of those on the trip to Prescott. Long days to talk about all the world, long nights with clear stars, fresh air, fires, small tasks and constant but easy companionable work. We were free out there - the only time. No one to watch us and bother us, to expect daring or violence, dissipation or polite social retreat. We just existed, pure and simple in the air with all we had made of ourselves to share with one another.
4. What is your favorite color, and why?
I like to wear grey. It is soft and contains all the other colours. It was traditional in my time to wear black, if one were a gambler, so I wore grey. It nicely complements all the other traditional accoutrements of fashion - and I must admit I was very fond of all the bright and rich colours of my silk waistcoats, cravats and handkerchiefs. It also formed a quiet analogy to my pastel shirts. But I liked it for itself. It was also the colour of the Confederate uniforms, and I am patriotic.
5. What is the most important thing that you have ever learned?
The thing that I have learned is that there are people who are worthwhile, beyond anything else on earth. And they could be anywhere - it is not that judges or mayors or generals are these men - necessarily, though sometimes they are. Sometimes it is a sporting man or a stage robber or a whore. So, one must be respectful to everyone, because you can never tell by looking or by profession, if a man or a woman is one of those that makes the world worth all the pain it provides. That may sound trite, but it defines so many actions, when it is truly followed. It creates responsibility for community and children, for one never knows which child wll grow to be one of these. It is not love, though it begets love, for how can one not love that which has such eclipsing worth? How can one not desire closeness and companionship and collaboration?

I have recently solicited questions. Please ask me. Here is another way of answering and asking questions - I have done this before, but one can never really answer enough questions to be entirely known, nor ask enough to entirely know others. For the most part.


Instructions
01. Please leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
02. I shall respond by asking you five questions.
03. Please update your journal with the answers to the questions.
04. Please include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you may ask them five questions.
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 on_holy_ground
 
22:59:21, July 1st, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
Darius
Interesting answers, and well thought out. I do appreciate the time you took.

You may ask me questions now as well, if you wish to do so.
 
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 john_h_holliday
 
6:17:23, July 2nd, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
John Henry Holliday, DDS
Thank you very much, Darius. I shall call you Father when and if you are again a priest, as you have mentioned it. I am a Catholic myself. I shall have to ask you questions no one else has asked. I surely like this process. It is formal, but it gives one the chance to ask real questions one has wished to ask when one has lacked context - to get to know one's fellows better.

1. You were asked about General Sherman. His army burnt my family's homes and he made us suffer greatly, but he was a great general and I myself made peace with him in Dodge. I will ask you then about Stonewall Jackson and his Valley Campaign, for my father fought under him and he remains a hero to me.
2. You say you believe in the ideas of the church. I believe in the Apostle's Creed - I say it sincerely, and the Ave Maria, and the Lord's Prayer, which truly brings me peace. In what do you believe? In the ideas of sacrifice and forgiveness, in God and His Son, and the host of angels?
3. I have killed men - it is no secret and, as always, I do not feel regret. How do you feel about killing, as a general for whom it is your profession, and as a priest for whom I would believe it would be a sin? How do you reconcile the two? John has absolutely no knowledge of immortals.
4. All men are lonely. At which times do you feel your loneliness most strongly?
5. What is the thing or ideal which you hold highest - that which is most valuable to you and makes you want to continue living for its sake?
 
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 on_holy_ground
 
15:21:40, July 2nd, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
Darius: General ~ Intent
I to find these questions to be most interesting, and it allows for us to know things that we may have never otherwise had the chance to discover. You're questions were very thought provoking, and I appreciate that you took the time to ask.

Your Answers
Description: General ~ Intent
 
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 the_iscariot
 
4:46:12, July 31st, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
Severus Snape
*folds arms* Okay, interview me.
 
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 john_h_holliday
 
5:26:51, July 31st, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
John Henry Holliday, DDS
John looks at Severus measuringly, with respect, serious eyes and a small smile. "Dr. John Holliday, at your service, sir. I surely, in turn, hope that you will be good enough to interview me." He gives a small gesture of a bow and presents his questions.

1. You look seem a man who does as he thinks best, despite the personal consequences. How did you gain the ability to sacrifice yourself?
2. Is there something - some glimmer of beauty you have always wished for, dreamt of perhaps, at night, even if it was unattainable - not something so teacherous as a person, but an idea, or a feeling you yearn for?
3. When you are on the heights, and look down into the abyss, and it looks back into you, as it suggests in Zarathustra: What does it see?
4. Tell me about a friend, if there is one you have loved. If there is not, tell me of someone you watch with approval, for whom you feel kinship, even if there is not friendship between you.
5. What is your relationship with Death? Do you have an alliance with it, as I do, or do you offer it as a gift to yourself or others, or think of it as punishment or failure?

 
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 the_iscariot
 
18:39:44, August 1st, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
Severus Snape

*bows* Severus Snape, at yours. Below are my replies, and forgive me but I shall post your questions soon.


1. You look seem a man who does as he thinks best, despite the personal consequences. How did you gain the ability to sacrifice yourself?

By not having much, and loosing it at a young age.

2. Is there something - some glimmer of beauty you have always wished for, dreamt of perhaps, at night, even if it was unattainable - not something so teacherous as a person, but an idea, or a feeling you yearn for?

Innocence. There are those who believe that my...regret somehow equals my redemption. I wish I could believe that.


3. When you are on the heights, and look down into the abyss, and it looks back into you, as it suggests in Zarathustra: What does it see?

Just another monster.


4. Tell me about a friend, if there is one you have loved. If there is not, tell me of someone you watch with approval, for whom you feel kinship, even if there is not friendship between you.

My friend was my own and I will not share her, although I pray you'll forgive me. But I can tell you about Harry Potter. He's a boy...who is going to save the world, even though he's never been asked to.


5. What is your relationship with Death? Do you have an alliance with it, as I do, or do you offer it as a gift to yourself or others, or think of it as punishment or failure?

In my youth, I was called a Death Eater. We were kids afraid of the dark, eager to fight it. For the only man who's ever asked me to kill him, it was...a release. That doesn't mean it wasn't a failure for myself.
 
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 john_h_holliday
 
5:41:35, August 3rd, 2007 (UTC)
 
 
John Henry Holliday, DDS
John tilts his head and considers Severus' answers. He smiles, liking the 'meme' more each time he encounters it. He nods as he reads in agreement. "Yes, I too lost everything when I was young. That was the way I learned to sacrifice myself as well." Drawn by the man's pessimism and self-reliance, he quotes an old friend. "Not everyone that knows you hates you. Surely not on first impression of your thought."

"I am glad of your young protégé. May you be proud of him." John is slightly envious of Severus' teaching career. He is honest about it. "I must I envy you, teaching. There could always be someone who might be the miraculous one, to change or save the world. And you can change the world too, through each one. Your influence stretching into the future. As to your friend, perhaps that is too personal to share with a virtual stranger. There is surely nothing to forgive."

He listens to the words about Death without understanding. "Death Eaters ingest death, or eradicate it, or perhaps Dark is not the same as Death to you? Death is my friend. Death gives me courage and freedom. I have dealt death, but it is not that, it is... communion. My immanent death keeps me company. You failed someone, yet their death was a release, for you were able to give them what they wished." John does not presume further, but contemplates possible scenarios for this.

"And innocence!" John sits earnestly. "I believe in progressive innocence. The more you know, through experience, through consideration - not regret exactly, but knowledge without blame, not Judging, but using what you have done to become more - the more innocent you become. Regret does not cleanse you, but what you do next, and next and next, always in your best, as it gets better and better. Then... there is no guilt, eventually. What is past is gone - you cannot change it. Redemption is only in learning and becoming better, now, with every action new. Innocence does not lie in not having done something, but knowing you would not do it again if you have deemed it... unworthy of you." He smiles, looking at the other man.

 
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