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8:42:00, June 23rd, 2007
John Henry Holliday, DDS
I have recently solicited questions. Please ask me. Here is another way of answering and asking questions - I have done this before, but one can never really answer enough questions to be entirely known, nor ask enough to entirely know others. For the most part.

01. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
02. I respond by asking you five questions.
03. You will update your journal with the answers to the questions.
04. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. Easy one for a start: Got any hobbies?
You may think it odd, but I don't have any hobbies. It is more than enough to get out of bed each new day, and hobbies suggest triviality, for which I can expend none of my small amount of energy. I love my work. I practice all the time. As a result I am very very good. I practice cards, I practice with guns, I keep up with dentistry as much as I may, I correspond, I drink for my health and gamble for my living, I continue to breathe and get up each day. I belong to the civic organisations and work to mould the world into a safe and good place, but that is responsible citizenship. I walk and ride, but again, that is largely for my health. Education. Education for children. Is that hobby? I promote and encourage it whenever I can, for I believe in it very strongly as a salvation for most ills of the world.

2. Ever kill a man?
John grins at that. Have you heard of me? Yes, I have killed men - it is common knowledge, apparently. I have killed men personally, I have killed men in what I can only regard as war, and I have killed men impersonally because they were evil. And unlike some people who do such things, I do not regret it and do not apologise. It needed to be done to save my life or the lives of others, or to mould the world into a better place, as I said above. And yes, I know where there are bodies buried, but I am not going to say much about who or where. We learned that with Stillwell, who I ironically did not kill. I am dying. Greater love hath no man than that he lay down his life for his friends. I do that, and have done that, and am always ready to do that. That is what I give in exchange for the right to kill. Honour and willingness to sacrifice myself.

3. Tell me straight, Doc, d'you ever just sort of watch people? You seem like the sort who'd just kind of sit back and observe, if you see what I'm saying, and I've gotta wonder what it is you see.
I watch. I watch a great deal. Sitting quietly in the saloon, when I am not working, practicing with Patience, I watch. Mostly I don't see anything beyond triviality - relationships ebbing and flowing, arguments over nothing, discussions of the obvious. I see this as a river, its participants floating therein, and I sit on the bank uninvolved. But I wait for... anomaly. For drowning of the innocent, for an opportunity to lift one weary of drifting to the air for a moment. Sometimes there is someone on the other bank of the river, poking the drifters with a stick. Then I must shoot him dead. Sometimes there is someone else on my bank of the river and he will sit with me a little. But that is even more rare. Sometimes I take to fishing, hoping for company, but the fish I catch gasp for air when I place them on the bank and I must replace them and bid farewell. That is what I see.

4. I don't know whether you've any steady sort of lady friend. In any case, what sort of girls do you prefer?
John smiles again, but this time it is involuntary. I have a gentleman friend. But that is not what you asked.

I meant to marry Mattie. She was good and saw the best in everyone, and had great faith in me and in God. She was brave and worked hard doing her very best for everyone she saw, and she was always gentle and understanding. She was also smart and witty, so that she could understand deep and dark things and knew to what one was alluding, even in a literary way, but she still saw the best in everyone. She was small and trim and a perfect lady, graceful and with decorum even at the worst of times. She was true and never denied me. She was brave and capable of doing whatever was necessary. When she was fourteen, she walked alone with her younger sister across Georgia from Savannah to Valdosta, a young girl in a chaotic and desperate war full of men that hated her and... well you know what can befall a young girl in such hands. She blesses me and keeps me. She always cheered me and cherished me and encouraged me, even in the west with her letters. She became a nun.

I prefer girls in so far as they resemble Mattie. But there is none who does so, so I expect less. There were a very few girls I met in the west who I admired for their diligence, perhaps, or gentleness in a rough place, but I was young then and if not healthy, I was handsome and not so ill as I became. I have taken whomever would have me, in my state, but that worked out rather for the worse. In the end I paid her $1000 to leave me and the town forever. I have had no one since. Also, with my profession and reputation and proclivities, no decent women would have me, and I would not burden any with the physical reality of my illness.

Again, I have had some few gentleman friends. Apart from Mattie and such women as my mama, who are rare or non-existent on the frontier, there have been only men. Men value other things. They know what it is to kill, perhaps, and to drink and ride and work with responsibility but no hope for oneself, so they have offered what comfort I could find, in that way. It was more than unpopular in my time, and perhaps you find it repugnant as well, but that is as may be. Here too, I am not one to apologise nor feel shame for that in which I believe.

5. There's something about you... Hell, I don't know, exactly. What do you want most, Doc? What do you value? You'll see what I'm getting at, sure you will.
John smiles directly into his eyes. I don't see, I think. For me, it is over. There is nothing to want because I am dead, or may be so at any time. They say I look for death, but that is not so. I want Heaven, but there is no hurry. I want to see my friends and loved ones again and live with them forever, healthy. You speak of peace. I am at peace. As for what I value, that is different. You speak of watching. I wait and watch for those I can respect - perhaps those who can value my understanding, or find peace through my insight from the fire with which I have been refined. For those with whom I can collaborate in thought and deed. Collaboration and companionship, for the world is hard and full of fire. But I will find it in Heaven, as I say, so there is no urgency in seeking, but only in offering. If one values something, truly, he lives for it and he becomes its embodiment. That is for what I strive, and for what I have always striven.
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4:21:30, June 25th, 2007 (UTC)
Theodore 'Hickey' Hickman: Hrmmm
That's quite the set of answers, Doc, and I gotta say, I like the way you talk. You've got a nice, straightforward way about you, and it's good to hear. Sounds like you know what you're about, and you know what? I respect that.

For the record, I have heard of you, Doc. Know a guy--well, a couple of guys, but one of them better than the rest, see--who likes to talk about you and your acquaintances. Can't say I remember much of his talk (that's what comes of drinking, isn't it?), but I sure do remember your name. There's just some questions you've gotta phrase a certain way, aheh.

Going to be thinking about what you've said for a while. Think I'll have some question for you, Doc, but for the moment, I've got to be getting back to some other problems, get the solution moving, see.

And if you'd like to shoot some questions in return, go on and have at it.
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5:27:27, June 26th, 2007 (UTC)
John Henry Holliday, DDS
John smiles genuinely and raises his cup to Hickey. "I surely do find you intriguing, sir, and I wish to discuss and learn more of your ideas. You present them so obliquely I am irresistibly attracted and find myself considering pleasantly what they might be. I find myself quite looking forward to your question."

"I always have whiskey, Mr. Hickman. And you are always welcome."

John and Bran will ask questions just as soon as I finish the play, which I bought yesterday. Welcome back!
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3:56:50, June 27th, 2007 (UTC)
Theodore 'Hickey' Hickman: Just like that
Well, well, Doc. Glad to hear you'll be up for some more talk. Got a lot to say lately--well, all right, I've always got a lot to say--and it's always good to have someone else to say it to. You can count on my dropping in, yessir, you can count on that.

Ooo, exciting-stuff. :D Do hope that you enjoy it, aye, and danke. ;)
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5:12:51, June 28th, 2007 (UTC)
John Henry Holliday, DDS: glenwood springs
1. What do you think might have happened if Evelyn and you had not wed? My questions may seem selfish, but of course it is difficult to know someone without carefully considering analogy and contrast to oneself, one's feelings and impressions. I too was a rover and Evelyn sounds so like Mattie that it makes me feel strange indeed to hear how it might have been for us.

2. Why did you call the police? I ask this because one truly at peace need not seek death. Oh yes, death is important, but it is a state, not an end. I have an idea I shuold like to present for our consideration, but... everything in its time and order.

3. If you wish to save people, which is surely benevolent, how do you reconcile your faith in their worth, which must surely cause you to be so diligent to that end, with the lack of faith inherent to the belief that they need saving? I ask this because there is one I would save now and others in the past and doubtless others in the future, and I mightily strive not to have or show pity, for that would result in failure, and I need to be honest.

4. If you wish to save others, for what do you wish to save them? That is to say, once they are... alright: real, do they have any choice but to be bound by dullness or to take up your mission for themselves?

5. Tell me about love and beauty. What is it that you find valuable and worthwhile in others?

Yep! We loved the play, and now John wants to talk to Hickey more than ever.
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5:32:47, June 28th, 2007 (UTC)
Theodore 'Hickey' Hickman: The Iceman
...Jesus, Doc. I mean... Jesus, how'd you know that? How'd you know I... I never--

Look, you can't think--


Well, ah, hey. I'm real sorry about falling quiet on you here, Doc, but you're going to have to give me a few minutes to sort out my thoughts. I, ah--Not to say that I don't know, I just need to make sure I'm saying it right, don't want you to get the wrong idea about... Well, about anything.

That's it.

Ex-cellent. :D On both points, aheh, as Hickey is always willing to talk (monologue much?); even when caught a bit off-guard. >.> Many thanks for the questions, which will have responses... hopefully soon, aye.
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8:44:19, July 1st, 2007 (UTC)
I wouldn't mind some questions either. I've always been fond of questions :)

That said you've got some right decent answers going here.
My Oma described Heaven as peace - as a place to no longer carry the weight of the world. She passed into peace with a smile and left smiles behind her.
Some weights I guess are still worth carrying - and some stories still need to be said. Life and dealings with it can be glorious - as can the sharing of stories.
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5:46:28, July 2nd, 2007 (UTC)
John Henry Holliday, DDS
Why I should be very happy to ask you questions! You are a real person, so feel free not to answer if you wish. I was quite incisive with Mr.Hickman.

1. Tell me about the smiles your Oma left, for you must have loved her. I had an Oma too - she was the one who taught me most, maybe. She was surely the one with the highest hopes for me.
2. Why were you deliberately isolated by your family when you were young? I cannot seem to understand this. My Bran (brenin_gwyn - did you know I had Bran too?) was isolated because he was albino and of uncertain parentage in a culture that didn't tolerate or understand that, and I myself was isolated from the community because my family's religion considered it 'the world' - they were very and strangely strict.
3. When you were a priest, what did you most wish to impart to those for whom you served as religious leader? That is to say, what were the guiding principles that you held to help them, or to save them, if you will?
4. I know that stepping out of the wild west, as they say, you are still feeling lack of companionship that comes from a mutually known background and foreground. What have you seen in Vancouver that might tell you that there are unlikely worlds in this city also, whose denizens might also feel their own culture shock as they walk about day to day?
5. What is the question that you wished I had asked?

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